Dear Satan,  

I’m writing you this letter to inform you that our relationship is officially done. You just lost one!

Cause for too long I’ve battled in my mind: your voice versus God’s versus mine. For too long I’ve entertained the same thoughts as Cain, like how truthfully my flesh loves to be first. How my pride tries to cover and hide so I can’t see the extent of this curse.

So I’m returning all your gifts.Rejecting all your myths. See all this time I thought that I had control, but you were controlling this.

Despite me doing good works in the church,thinking I was a Christian. All the while allowed your spirit to lurk, WHAT A DECEPTION! You went to church with me, a thwarted perception. Saying that I love God louder and louder but had a spiritual infection.

I see you’re a deceiver; you take advantage of every weak part. I could come to church every week as long as I don’t apply the word to my heart. We were friends because I did what you wanted me to. I thought a little sin wouldn’t hurt. I mean I didn’t want to sleep with you I just thought it would be cool to flirt.

But I see you play for keeps, now I know that the Word is true. What you sow is what you reap.I keep saying ‘I’m so blessed, I’m so blessed’ ,all the while secretly giving you a kiss.

 

In the back of my mind I thought I’d really give God 100% when I’m old. Once I’m done having my fun. Then I thought what if I don’t make it past 25, then what?What did I live for? I just can’t ignore anymore this proposal from the Lord.

 So I changed my number so you would no longer call and I would no longer fall. But even though I did all that you still controlled me from afar. Because I was just trying to be a better person: Stopped clubbing, stopped sex, stopped cursing, dropped friends, cause of greed stopped working. But stopping things don’t rid the seed of the serpent.

It was all self-righteousness.A righteousness I created.It’s like using filthy rags to take a bath, when the truth is my entire sin nature is bad. And me stopping those things never dealt with the wickedness of my heart. 

 So in case you forgot, I’m writing this letter to inform you that our relationship is officially done.

YOU JUST LOST ONE!

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Sometimes, we start singing a song that doesn’t really define who we are. And that moment when we finally realize it? No other word than this: Happiness.

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IF ALL WAS STRIPPED AWAY, WOULD HE REALLY BE ENOUGH?

On Courtship and How saying “No” can be Nice

It may seem in the natural understanding that this is ‘cruel’ but sometimes, we have to be cruel in order to be nice. The best thing we can really do for anybody is to keep pointing them to Jesus. Sometimes, we never get the credit, but we live to please Him. Goodness, justice and mercy should always be in the context of putting God first. It’s hard to keep standing on God’s truth and seeing a friend in pain, but it can be done. It has to be done. Because anything other than His perfect will is called compromise.

Day 2: THIS GLORIOUS SUNSET.

    

I’ve been feeling specially nostalgic today - partly because of the gloomy weather, mostly because I’m thinking of how to say goodbye to people I’ve learned to hold close to my heart. Distance is never a problem for people who care, they say. I completely agree. But there is a time for everything, and so I allowed myself to feel sad about leaving. And then there was light. Literally. The sky suddenly opened and it looked to me like the sun’s coming down a stairway to heaven, reminding us that everything will be okay, and it always gets better every time. Thank You, dadiGod. You always know what to do and exactly when to do it. :’) I still feel a little sad, but I know we’ll get through this stuff about leaving and confidently say - without a trace of doubt: “We will meet again.”

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Yes. He wants to talk to you NOW. He misses you. Other things have been keeping you busy and more often than not, you might forget that He is here, but HE IS. And He will be here yesterday, today and forever. He won’t leave you nor forsake you. When all the things you’ve been busy about goes away, He will still be there. Because forever means no end. Because He loves. Because there can be no greater Love than this. Talk to Him today. He’s been waiting since forever.

Yes. He wants to talk to you NOW. He misses you. Other things have been keeping you busy and more often than not, you might forget that He is here, but HE IS. And He will be here yesterday, today and forever. He won’t leave you nor forsake you. When all the things you’ve been busy about goes away, He will still be there. Because forever means no end. Because He loves. Because there can be no greater Love than this. Talk to Him today. He’s been waiting since forever.

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You Won’t Relent - Jesus Culture

You won’t relent until You have it all
My heart is Yours

I’ll set You as a seal upon my heart
As a seal upon my arm
For there is love that is as strong as death
Jealousy demanding as the grave
Many waters cannot quench this love

Come be the fire inside of me
Come be the flame upon my heart
come be the fire inside of me
Until You and I are one

For quiet a long time now, I have been a slave to my feelings. To people who thought they’ve met this awesome other person who’s not quiet what they expected but who definitely earn top spot on their Like list, to fellow beings who dreamed a dream so intensely it has become the reason for their breathing, I’m pretty sure you know what I mean.

I’m an extreme person. For reasons not clearly known to me, I feel things differently. More often than not, there can be no middle ground for me - it’s all or nothing, baby. And so I convinced myself I didn’t feel anything other than ‘like’ for this someone. I was pretty sure I can handle him. I was wrong. Not too long after I’ve been talking non-stop about him; and even though I said it was nothing and we’re just friends, I was smiling inside. Errr. So much for being neutral.

But there is something that no human being - opposite species or not - can beat as Number 1 on my Ultimate List: Medschool. For as long as I can remember, I dream of becoming a doctor. The bestest. I never wanted to do anything and be anyone else. I took up Nursing with the express intention of proceeding to Medicine afterwards. I have prayed and prayed, begging God to hear me. I tried to make deals and unconsciously did His works with an ulterior motive - to make up for this one dream that seems always within reach but not quiet on hand: a dream bigger than myself.

And so now, I have come to this. Today I am nothing. The person I talked about is as far from me as he could possibly be. My admission to medschool is still probational. But what’s amazing is this: Today I am nothing, but I have everything. I am happy. I have arrived at the point of no return, and His grace has found me just as I am - God took it all and made things new again. For some it might look like I’m stuck in a rut, but I’m actually in the best position, because now there can be no way to go but up.

You know the feeling of holding on to something so tightly, the thing just disintegrates in you hands? I have been like that. I’ve been holding on to my dreams and my wants, I didn’t realize I almost choked the life out of these things. Today my dreams are in my hands, but God has thought me to hold on to it gently, to offer it with open hands to Him, to trust that He knows way better than I do. I will be a doctor. But being on probationary admission because of my documents taught me to be humble. To not trust myself too much - to trust in Him instead.

Proverbs 16:9 says, "A man’s heart plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps” . And yes, He won’t relent until He has it all.

Grazie Mille

A thousand thanks. Because Hapiness is a choice, and I choose to be happy. How can I ever say enough? How amazing is His love.

Day 1: Today I am thankful for my Mum and Pup. I would never say this to just anybody, but to you who took the time to read through this, I am blessed enough to share that my father would’ve been a priest if he had not met my mum. How cool is that? So yes, the fact that I am living today is nothing short of a miracle. I may be too stubborn and idealistic at times, I speak my mind and I procrastinate, I certainly am not a perfect daughter. But I’m thankful because God has given me the perfect set of parents who match me - word for word, idea for idea - the nuetralizers to my almost always intense passions. For pushing me hard to do something, for being the voices calling out to me when I’m down, for teaching me about love and life the best way they can, for giving every drop of sweat and blood to make sure our dreams can and will come true, you will forever be my reminders that God is real, and He is the source of everything good. Thank you, Mum and Pup. I will always love you both.♥ Cheers to parents who rock their children’s worlds.

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Hello! :) I know you must be sending this to random people but I’m still glad I’m one of them. It’s always heartwarming to know humans are still very capable of caring. I’m with you, dear. God bless!♥

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"You were born with potential.
You were born with goodness and trust.
You were born with ideals and dreams.
You were born with greatness.
You were born with wings.
You are not meant for crawling, so don’t.
You have wings.
Learn to use them and fly."
~Rumi